The Same Scene; Forever.

How old is too old? When do we grow older and loose our youthful innocence? When does going out with friends become a chore? Is this what we call maturity, or is it a part of life...to settle into routine?

Looking around me in a dark room, with loud music from some no name band injuring my hearing further, i see a scene painted in front of me that i know all too well. Girls we would never call ladies, dressed to the nines in the most attention grabbing outfits they could manage to put together from what's left in their closet after weeks of partying. Boys whom we would never refer to as mean, due to the fact that they dress as if this is still 1986 and Motley Crue is in the room provoking the restless members of this dull party. "We just live to experience life!" This is what they claim.

I didn't realize experiencing life meant drinking away your brain cells and your paycheck on a nightly basis. You fill yourself with false expectations of what will come of this dance you shimmy to nightly. For the first time in my life I have taken a look at the people around me and just wanted to run far, far away. A little voice inside of me screaming that my time here has ceased. I realized that I want some routine in my life. Someone who will wake up when a.m. still follows the number on the clock to explore the day with me. Travel, read, write, learn. There's so much to see, and the most common thing people in this city see is the inside of a bar. Disgusting. You have a city full of useful tools at your hands and you waste it away.

Let me tell you something kids; you're not a musician if you only pick up your guitar once a week and spend the rest of your time boozing. You're an alcoholic with a hobby. Get a job and then explore your passion. It's alright to be without monetary benefits in life...if you're working towards something that will establish you in a way so sturdy that one day my children will say, "look mom, i got an autograph from _____." Stop wasting everyone's time, including your own.

In the event of moving forward, I have chosen to write on this site weekly. To evolve in my learning process and explore the theories given to me daily. I know now the next step to my life, and I will not stand here idly waiting for it to happen. I made the giant leap it took to start my true life here in California. I have settled into what I now call "home." I have my career path laid in front of me with a distinguished map of where I'm going and how I will get there. He is going to be next. Steps towards completion. One, two, three.